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Living happily ever after at last. Who would have guessed??? Life is good!

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Gonna be hard to say goodbye…

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Moving on…

So yeah, I got over the empty promises of the married guy and life goes on. I still hate how how much he hurt me and how foolish I was to believe him. I guess you are never too old and wise to make stupid mistakes.

In the time that has past, my youngest child has moved far away, my other child has married and I rarely see much of him. So it’s me and the cat. Honestly, I never thought life would “empty out” so abruptly. I had no time to prepare for what lie ahead, no real idea. I thought, or hoped, that me and the guy would be sippin on a nice glass of wine under the Arizona sunset. Ha. Gawd, did I really buy all that talk? I guess so.

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What are you looking for, Tim? I mean, really? Why did you waste so much time selling yourself to me if you didn’t want me to love you? I have 116 emails, miles of text msgs, hours on airplanes and driving all over hell for you. Why? I think I was just a toy for you. Something to entertain yourself with and feed your ego…same as the vette, the big house, the Scottsdale address in the gated community…all you needed was a little to on the side, right? Who does that?

So now what will you do to feed your inner monster, dahling? Buy an island? Maybe you should buy some self-esteem or maybe a backbone, some courage, some integrity? How about the ability to make promises you keep?

I got what I deserved for believing you when I tried to walk away so long ago. Exactly what I deserved.

Guys, if you are gonna leave, have a spine and do it before you entangle someone else in a mess you hven’t cleaned up yet….and rip their heart out too in the process. No one needs that kind of reward for loving you.